Pianissimo by Andrea Bocelli and Cecilia Bartoli

This beautiful piece was something I came upon awhile ago.  It turns out to have a very

special meaning for me and Danny.  We giggled as I tried very much to sing the part that 

Cecilia sings but I couldn't resist.  I was driving home from the hospital in the snow and 

and had to leave Danny there early that evening to get home safely.  Tears welled up as I 

played this song in the car.  It moved my heart so much because I wanted to bring him 

home, but he was still ill.  Not long after he passed, I wanted to play it again, but I would

not let myself.  I would have cried.  One evening, in the car, there was the most beautiful 

sunset and I played it as I couldn't resist.  It took my breath away and I felt the song and 

the sunset must be a gift as I felt Danny holding my heart close to him.  So, I felt I would

look up the English version of the lyrics.  What I discovered was what some might call

hauntingly beautiful, but I didn't feel haunted, I just knew strongly in my heart it was 

message in a sense and that's why this song must have came into my life before he went

to Heaven.  There are no mistakes with the Lord when He knows your heart.  I thank 

Him for this song, this new song of ours.  I know there will not be marriage in Heaven

like here, however, I must believe that Danny and I will always love one another and that

is because we chose to place God first in our lives and not be angry about letting go of 

unnecessary things in life that have little meaning.  A mature long lasting eternal close 

friendship love also.  

I will type the English lyrics and will forever try to sing the beautiful Italian and 

dream that our giggles will turn into smiles as Danny tries to sing along because in 

He can enjoy a lovely voice now in Heaven!  

English is entitled   VERY QUIETLY

When you are with me, I brighten up.

I don't know why, but I already feel that warmth that caresses me

And smiles at me and takes me to you.

If you love, it will come and the pain will pass

If you love you will feel, that its true love.

When you are with me I feel the soul

I see the beauty all around me.

You'll walk away, you won't look for me,

But then, suddenly you'll appear.

If you love, it will come

And the pain will pass.

If you love, you will feel its true love.

 I love you, Danny...

 

 

 Early On....

Not long after my sweet husband passed away, our daughter, Crista, and son in law, Patrick, who had been here for a couple of weeks, in my home, as part of my loving care team, invited me to go up to Virginia to visit his mother and father, at his mother's kind request.  Her name is Kathleen.  I have been invited with Danny to go there a few times and there has always been a warm welcome, good food, a comfy bed and everything one would want in a visit.  They never made us feel a stranger.  This time, was no different. 

By the way, Kathleen had nine children, Patrick, being the youngest.  If you look at her here, one would never know.  She is absolutely beautiful and her heart is very compassionate.  I was thrilled to be asked to come and spend more time with Crista and Patrick, since before long, they would have to return to Germany, where he is stationed with the US Army.  

I also longed to be with someone caring, near my age...one whom I felt would understand my needs for "friendship" at this time...and she did.  She said she could not imagine what I felt.  By the way, this couple traveled all the way from Virginia to Danny's funeral Mass and burial.  I need to include that as a misfit sentence, nonetheless..haha...because it adds to what I am talking about..the love. Her husband is a very busy man.  She retired not long and she is older than me...both are, but unlike Danny and I, Phil just wasn't ready to retire. He works in DC and its a serious type work and the drive there and back is long, so he gets home tired enjoys a good meal there, so they aren't a couple that goes alot.  In that respect, Kathleen, does understand some long quiet hours.  We had something in common and to me she does understand how too quiet things can be.  So I enjoyed being with her alot.

While there, she and another friend whose daughter is soon to be married into the family, took me out to a wonderful Mexican gourmet type meal...not just for tacos..in this very cute little place and we had a very nice conversation.  This mother is very loving and both are Catholic too! She was a nurse and looked me straight into my heart with hers and said..."How are YOU doing?"  It was a sweet moment and her intention very sincere.  I felt also at complete ease with her.  It was a time I needed.

Another time, and that is the picture above, was when we decided to go to a winery out in the countryside.  We purchased a lovely cheese, olive, and toasts platter and some wine to taste.  It was so very relaxing. I know that Crista enjoyed being with both of us and that was perfect.  I would not want it any other way.  I know her love for me as her mother is there and it is all I need to know, but being with them both so comfortable was truly a gift and I am so thankful.  I pray for many things that I won't mention here, but God knows my heart and I trust He will bring those things to pass if Kathleen and I keep praying and offering our hearts to our children.  I ask the Lord to bless Crista and Patrick and to help them.  I miss being with my daughter very very much...it is hard...another very difficult tear jerking thing to endure, but I am grateful also that I can pick up the phone and talk with this new found friend, Kathleen, sometimes.  I will always try to just be grateful.

My Little Angel

 I have a Guardian Angel that watches over me and I feel so blessed to have one!  God truly has given each one of us one, at least that is what I was taught from an early age and I have been helped in so many ways that I can hardly deny or not believe this!  

At this time in my life, I need so many prayers and helps to keep my head up somewhat and myself more at peace.  I also believe that not only is the Lord watching over me anyway He might choose to, but I believe that he has allowed our little David to watch over and help me, most likely my parents praying for me and maybe helping me, but since Danny passed on to life eternal, I feel quite strongly that he is truly spending time helping me, rooting for me, and praying for me.  I am so grateful and with this help, I was able to do so much concerning all of the "business"  things of which there were many because I could simply hear him say in my heart, "Its going  to be okay, its going to work out...take it one thing or day at a time. Pay attention closely to who is telling you what you need to do and try to take care of it as soon as you are able and keep calm."  Also, I was reminded of him saying, "The Knights (of Columbus) will take care of you and they have! Amazing men and amazing other many friends.  If it weren't for my wonderful husband, I simply do not think that things would have gone so smoothly.  I am glad I asked Danny to put things in as good of an order as he could and explain to me step by step, which he did a couple of years ago.

Going back to my angel here, she was given to me by a dear old friend..one who was with me during the time we had Baby David and she stayed by our side during his life and afterward with her heart and when Danny passed, she was there for me again and this little angel was a gift to help me in some way to remember that I do have a wonderful Guardian Angel always by my side.  I love Beth. She and Danny had the same birthday..I met her and reached out to her as one of the first people that I had befriended on my own as an adult and I wanted to be a good friend because I felt she really needed a good woman friend.  What happened, is she has been that good friend to me by humbly always being still there and we have not actually been a part of day to day life, but in times of need, Beth appears somehow STILL.  I will treasure this little angel that lights up in the dark from the sun rays soaked in during the day...the light that God made lights even this little angel.

Thank you Lord, Jesus, for my Guardian Angel and this beautiful friend, named Beth.  Thank You for allowing Danny and David and any of my family or friends in Heaven and here on earth that have been prayer angels, supportive angels. Please bless them well.  Amen
 

 Greetings! 

It has been since 2018, that I have

written a blog post. Its difficult to 

write now, but I found this and perhaps

it would not be a bad idea and help.

Since one year ago, Danny and I moved

back to Indiana from Florida.  Since

that time, 4 months ago, on Feb. 3,2022,

Danny passed into Heaven's realm and

embrace. Its a long story I don't feel the 

need to go over at this time.  I miss him

and yet, I am happy for him at the same 

time. Anyway, I will leave this post with

his photo...one beautiful person's photo,

my one and only true love.  I love you

Danny...pray for me and all of your family.

Remember your words.."I love my family!

 

 

 

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